i noe it is the second time im blogging today.... the result why i wanna blog now is regarding my work... U noe i have been working in this XXX company for 7 months n i have been getting craps n shits from the management level people.

For your information,,, i am in executive position (Account Executive) n im treated like a maid or even a dog there... my pay is so much little compare to e other executive level people. n im doing so much load in oneday... whenever i go home,,, i feel so lathargic n exhausted that i need to take a 2 hours nap everyday... im treated like a robot... as u ppl noe,,, im handling full set of accounts (AR, AP, GL) n things have to be done when coming to due date. so everyday i was rushing things out n just stare e computer e whole...

What worst is that whenever my Finance Manager is not happy wif my performance, she will complaint to all the stuffs esp HR Manager.. Im so tired to listen to so many negetive comments about me... Whenever my FM ask me to do something,, i will get reprimanded from others managers. i have been playing as a middle man role since the day i work.. Like yesterday,,, i was treated so badly tat i hv to sit on a small table n without a PC to use... simply bçoz i let my place to my newly appointed account excecutive n account assistant.... haizzz,,, i didnt tell anyone about my job simply coz i do nt wan my brothers to worry about me....

I have been u noe ëverything OK guy.... so everything ok... haizzz im so not okay now... Thank god tat i alreadz leaving e company in one week time...

See ya

Shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:50 AM

Hi readers,,, today im so inspire and n tinking wad is my career in future time.... so surprisingly,,,, i have thought of working in the hospital at a management level... coool rite!!! hahahahazz.... coz i find that nurse n doctor r e most bevelonence ppl on earth... just wanna experience wad life is in the hospital... HR manager? Leisure n Recreation Manager? Adminstrative Manager? or Executive Assitant - CEO????

i tink i must crazy thinking so much things...... now i just wan to earn more money n study hard in my poly life.....

till here..

Shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:28 AM

hellooo guys,,, im back.... after a 2 days break.....

finally i got a sit n a computer to use in my office... its so bored still.... haizzz....

will update u guys more...

see ya...

shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:06 AM

hellooo readers.. i noe its late at night i supposed to be in my lalaland but i just cant sleep due to so many things running in my mind...

1. Playing of Flute
i found myself recently that my playing has been quite bad. i guess is due to lack of practices... i cant get back my usual tone i had last time... i guess i realli have to look into my playing n do smth about it...

2. Expenses
My expenses for each week has gone realli high!!! Oh gosp,,, i realli have to be careful on wad i spent on next time... if not,,, my NETS n Credit card will be confiscated again which i do not wan it to happen... Nightmare for me thou.

3. New School, New Environment
i guess i had mention in my previous post that it's a question mark for me to adapt to the new environment in Republic Poly. Its a finger cross for me to start new term, school, environment n spectrum...

4. Work
I have been going to work doing nothing, simply b'coz i have handover all my job list.. I just feel veri redandunt there... haizzz so pathetic right.... sad!

I realli hope i wont get affected by this problem....

See u soon readers...

Shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:12 PM

hellooo readers,,, today is such a hot day... so hot!!! my gosp....

to here are my resolution for year 2007:

-get myself a better hair colour n shape (chocolate colour with golden hightlight)
-better fashion clothes
-get all neccessities
-ance free skin
-bigger n mascular body
-dark skin color
-save more money to go for a trip

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:07 AM

hellooo readers,,, im back from a wedding dinner...
can u imagine my cousins got married at the age of 19???!!! oh gosp,,, tats so ridiculous.... phew... simply b'coz his 'wife to be' is pregnant....

gosp man... ok today went with shirley to RP for enrolment.... ok lah so many ppl...

then meet nazreen to pass my O level stuff to him....

thats all readerss...

see ya...

shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:20 AM

helloooo readers!!! hahahahazzzz im back n so surprisely i blog so early eh!!??? Coz im in the office.. currently my office (admin, HR, Finance) has move to Ang Mo Kio as a sub office due to the lack of office space in e hotel... hahahahaahz.. im so happy that i jus has to wake up late n come down to AMK for onli 30 minutes.. isnt it a good things??? hahahahahahazzz.

After i leave this company,,, my boss is actually organizing a farewell party for me n a sum of money to give it to me as a token of appreciation... i donnoe how much is the amount but will see then...

so many things r jus wondering in my mind... What i need to get is:
-Protec Flute Case
-Spectacles
-2 Jeans
-1 short pant
-1 polo T-shirt + 1 normal T-shirt
-Watch
-Shoes
-Sketer Bag

so greedy ah wan so many things.. hahahahazz...

see u then readers.....

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:14 AM

hellooo reader!!! im back!!!

ok i jus gonna make this post short....

im enroling to RP!!!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:41 PM

Hello im back back, readers! today is a boring day for me... i just cant concentrate in the office...

I SERIOUSLY SICK OF MY LIFE!!!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:15 PM

Today is sure a monday blues to me... Wasnt in my good condition due to the warm and stuffy night yesterday... i guess the weather has become warmer n its alwayz at this hour of time. hmmm.... i still cant forget yesterday comwork. its so hilarous.... im so crazy on that day simply b'coz i got so many unknown "fanclub"!!! aiyozzzz...

ok back to today,,, i wondering am i gonna be in this office for the another 4 weeks??? im getting bored each day n i do not hv job to do... simply b'coz they hired a new accountant to take over me. i feel like im slacking everytime i reach office. Not that i don wan to help her but my finance manager jus say hand over everything to do.

i donnoe wad my life gonna be when i enter poly on 16 April... jus wondering... is my class gonna be fun like my secondary school days? is the school gonna be the one i like??? so many ????? running in my mind. wad to do??? hmmm..............

i guess i need to blush up on my flute skill as i find tat im slacking in my playing. everyone wans to be perfect.... haizzzya,,, how i wish i can be like Rasull n Andy Sim playing...

wondering wondering...

Shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:17 PM

Hey today is SWS comwork!!! Oh gosp!! n im so nervous.............. anyone can help???

ok today concert was extremely nice coz i really played my best. thou small mistake do take place, every human being do err ritez... we started of with e ARBRAM PURSUIT by Mr. Tan Aik Koon. Was nervous coz it was the first piece.. n oh ya before the concert start,,, i could feel so many garls staring at me??? oh gosp i hate that feelings....

Seventh Nitez of July was the second piece... i was totally nervous coz i hv solo..... a small part then... n i really love how Rasull express his feelings towards e pieces... thou i noe i wont be playing as well as him, (anywayz, he's a goddess n multi talented) i will definitely play my best..

ok during the interval, i go look for my juniors!!! woah they are all so haper when they saw me!!! why????! i aso donnoe don ask me.... staring by ppl is so uncomfortable... u noe wad i mean yaz reader,!

Beiyi was really shock to see my with so many 'fanclub' n jolin was so fansinated abt thos ppl staring me... i aso donnoe why...

mayb i shld set up a fanclub??? hahahahahazzzz in ur dream yazz reader!

ok im tired,,, wanna sleep now....

good nitez...

shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:00 AM

Hey guys,, shah is back again... hahahahaha.... ok to keep u guys out there update,,, i will definitely update everyday... hmmm... i didnt go to work today? Why???? Due to pure laziness n to give excuses that im having an important event tomorrow which is COMWORK!!!! im prepared now even e song im not quite sure (hymn to the infinite sky) n i hv been practicing this piece all e while coz i don wan any last min crop up...

Yesterday was the final rehearsal for comwork n u noe wad? we actually played the whole entire concert repertiore... whoah!!! IT'S SO SHIOK BUT TIRRRRED~~~OBVIOUSLY! hahahahaz,.,,, who wont ritez with 11 pieces pending to be played... i noe my whole northland symphonic band ppl will be coming to support Mr. Tay... coz northland is part of the program. oh gosp!!! tats mean im gonna face the craziness of my junior???!!! Nightmare!!! but they r all nice ppl yazz... no harm...

i guess im gonna get myself prepare today to avoid any last min rushing... n i hate last min rushing...

See Ya!!!

Shah~~

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 5:01 PM

Hi everybody out there, today shah jus posted a new post after a long break from blogger coz im bz wif my work.

Its been so long yet so fast n im going to miss everybody esp. my secondary school classmates. I use to sit with koon beng and we do hv joy n sometimes lamness (or should i say everytimes?) hmmmm...... Chor Liang is e person sit in front of me but most of e time he will turn back n talk to us.... i guess half the times in school, we alwayz hand together. three of us have e same goal which is................................... to study hard n get into a poly course. we alwayzz joke around n call each other name but we don hv any bad intention.

Jus recalling back,,, taking my O level result is a thing im so afriad of. To accept the truth or to let heaven decide where i should go is burdening me everyday b4 e result is out. But i was really relief when i hold on to my precious result slip. Reason being: coz i have done exceptionally well.. Thou it may nt be as fantastic as Chor Liang result.. ahahahahaha... no offence Chor Liang.... Next is to get into a poly course i have alwayz wanted to: Sport and Leisure Management!! Well,,, ppl alwayzz told me this word ---> WHY!!!??? so i jus reply them saying its my own choice. VJ called me n ask me to go their school but too bad,, i rejected it coz im not keen to it. well wad can u say then?

I have just realize that entering into a poly indeed need a laptop. Well,,, i do not have enuf cash coz i hv spend all my $$$ on the thing i had alwayz wanted to buy --> Flute, Handphone, GMIC Headjiont etc etc... tats alreadz cost me a big burden. So i hv to ask my mom to fork out half of the price of the laptop. I noe where can find less then $1000 Acer Laptop. hahahahaahz... ask me if u wan to purchase one. hahahahahahahazz...

I will have to leave the company on 13th April as im tendering to Republic Poly on the 16th April. n my birthday is on 20th April!!! woah!!! how fast im gonna turn 18!!! getting older each year i guess. birthday resolution? havent thought of it yet... any suggestion? i noe wad my brother will say ---> gain some weight brother! haiz its alwayz e same question n answer. wad to do? no matter how much i eat, i will still remain at 56KG... isnt it weird? hahahahaz i guess.

Anyway,,, Comwork is coming in 3 days time? i guess im prepare except for one piece ---> Hymn to the infinite Sky... coz running note is nv my forte so i hv to actually force myself to run the note. errmmmm i tink i use the wrong synosis. ghahahahaaz. but who cares. if u wan to hv e details, its all below my post. jus take a look yaz.

I jus wonder wat is life gonna to be in RP? izzit gonna be tough n challenging? or a breeze to me?
Wad more im worrying abt is my financial status now coz of the laptop issue. i'm saving money to buy a new laptop n i don wanna depend on my brothers to buy coz i alreadz burden them alot financially.

Put aside to that, i hve been alwayz wondering when can i really acieve e state of flute goddess? when can i play like Rasull or Andy Sim? its so hard to achieve tat state yazz... thou many ppl phrase me of my playing. but i wan to go further then that? as e words goes saying, there's room for improvement... isnt it true? I hv never stop learning even my last breath.

Good news to everyone, my twin iss back from China.!!!! she's nontheless Gu Beiyi!! Oh gosp,,, i miss her so much... half a year didnt met each other is really a torture.. she use to cheer me up wif all my rubbish joke. i still rmb e esplanade concert hall put up by singapore wind symphony. im one of e player there so is beiyi. we had lotsa of fun at e back stage. photograph is never short of it. well,,, i guess we r too crazy then.. hahahahhahahaz..

ok i guess i will write till here..

Shah

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:18 PM